Friday, July 7, 2017

Too Tired To Come Up With a Title

IVE BEEN IN REHAB.

Okay, hold on. I know what you are thinking. WHY ON EARTH IS SHE SHARING THAT WITH US? Okay, here is why. BECUASE MORE PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH. If there is one thing I learned while in mental rehab it was that having people who are there for you is important.

So, with that being said. Hello.

I'm V and I have anxiety and I am bipolar.

Let us help one another out. I'll help you by sharing the experiences and you can help me by showing support and love. Which a lot of you already did in the most recent post. THANK YOU ALL. LOVE YOU GUYS.

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I had been in the hospital for two weeks. TO SAY THE LEAST.  The first week I was there I was in and out of the ER and the second week I was getting mentally ready to tackle the world. It just so happens that I am home now. I have been home for an hour and 34 minutes to be exact. 

In that hour. I have awed at life and simply smiled because I got to shower, shave, do my makeup, and paint my nails. ALL STUFF I LOVE. Coming home after a mental retreat (I hate the work rehab, still.) has been lovely. The weather has been a shock but it's nothing I am not happy and excited about. A shock since I went from being in the air conditioned hospital to the apartment with no air conditioning. 

I'm about to watch the end of pretty little liars. I am soooo ready. I love this show and who is with me about that? if not... you have got to start PPL. WHHOOOP. Funny

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Now, it's the day after.  I am tired as shit. I sleep a ton and I don't do much. The only thing I have done today was going to the gym and lift. I think I am tired of seeing so many colors and smelling so many things. Boy was that hospital bland. 

Dream while napping: We wanted to take a one day trip to NYC just the two of us. My friend and her energy and me and my skepticism. Together we marched around an airport in clothes that made us feel like divas and tried to find a laptop too but tickets so we could go to NYC for a few hours and come back. "Are we really going to do this?" I asked. "Yes why not, we got this." The excitement was at an all-time high. But in the dream, we never found a ticket. We just went to jail and walked naked to jail. the clothing we took had set off a police hunt.

13 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear about everything that is happening in your life right now :( The silent battle for mental health is so hard. I wish I had something more to say, but words aren't enough <3

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  2. I'm so proud of you for being so strong, Vanessa. It sounds like you're going through a really hard time right now. You've always been a huge inspiration to me and seeing a post in my feed from your blog never fails to make my heart sing. We all love you!
    Thank you for sharing some of your story. No one here is judging you because it's so, so beautiful to see someone who isn't afraid to show that they are human.
    I really hope you feel better soon. <3 <3 <3
    xoxo

    Sophy

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  3. I hope you continue to heal and get stronger. I agree we need to share our problems with each other, praying for you!

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  4. Thank you for sharing some of your story. No one here is judging you because it's so,

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  5. Hi V! So glad you're back <3 I hope you're okay and honestly, kudos to you for getting back out here and continuing sharing with all of us. I love, too, how you're going to be incorporating material about mental health because it is SO. IMPORTANT. Much love for this post and you <3 Always here to listen!
    xx
    steph
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  6. Aw, Vanessa. Feeling for you, girl! Thanks for your openness and honesty. Keep holding on, and remember you're not walking this path alone. xx

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  7. Woah V, I had no idea you where in hospital. Hope you're okay D:. Contact me if you can!

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  8. I'm sorry about everything you've been going through, Vanessa, praying for you girl and hope you get better soon. <3

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  9. I'm sorry to hear that Vanessa but I know you're strong :) And I know you can fight it.
    It really is so hard when you're dealing with your mental health, I mean, I have these anxieties of mine. From time to time, I'm doing my best to stay positive but it's really hard to do that. ~sigh

    You go girl! Always heart strong!

    Homed: Life in Sugar & Spice

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  10. girl you are so strong and lovely, I'm praying for you darling <3

    (and what'd you think of the all finale???)

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  11. I can't imaging what you've been through. I hope you're doing well and stay strong, stay positive and stay happy :) we are all rooting for you!

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  12. I am glad you are home and getting back into the swing of things. I'm sure it was rough. I am here for you when you want. I know a bit about mental health from a personal perspective and in working with many people. You know a lot about physical health and you can teach me a lot. I send you my love and support.

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  13. This is a brave thing to share, Vanessa. Remember that your readers got your back! Take care x

    Also, thanks for always dropping positivity in my blog even when I'm always on hiatus. I really appreciated that. :)

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