Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Thursday, November 24, 2016

I'm Thankful for Disappointment

Ignorant mistakes that were made, people that came into my life only to leave, the times I've fallen, the bad grades I've gotten, and the defeat I've fought off are all things I am extremely thankful for.

If I were to say any of these things at Thanksgiving dinner while everyone is saying what they are thankful for I would get wide-eyed stares. Each one of these remarks is dark and deep but the more I think about it the more I realize how truly thankful I am for every one of my failures. Putting myself in a vulnerable position at the dinner table is definitely not something will be doing but on my blog this is acceptable.

Last night I was making a list of the people I was thankful for with reasons explaining why and I was tempted to write down the names of people that disappointed me. Typically these names are not mentioned on a list of thankfulness but I learned something from every person that left me with an empty feeling when I say their name. I wrote down their names and then I couldn't stop- the list kept growing.

From the person who I had to sit in class with for a whole semester after exposing myself to the person who entered my life when I was vulnerable and wanted to take advantage. As well as the people who made me feel like I had no value and the people who thought I couldn't accomplish my goals. So many people who didn't stick around. So many of them teaching me so many valuable lessons which I am thankful for.

I learned how to deal with being thrown aside for someone better, how to block others negative opinions, when to let go of someone, and how to not go insane thinking about someone. I've even learned how to be friendly with an enemy, deal with people who talk behind your back and handle situations in a calm and respectful manner. All these lessons were learned from people who entered into my life for the wrong reasons.

Letting these kind of people in my life is a mistake until I get the chance to reflect on the things they taught me about humanity and myself. I have made mistakes more than I can count but only a few of those mistakes lead to where I am today. 

I am thankful for all these people. That statement feels more real than stating how thankful I am for all the positive impacts people have made on my life. Understanding that a bad situation can lead to a good outcome, feels like a grown up thing to say.

This Thanksgiving I am most thankful for growing and learning from the people that disappointed me.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Isabelle and Yoga











I have no idea how to start this post. "If there is one person who has influenced who I am today..." "The girl standing next to me..." "Together we are crazy but this girl has impacted my life in so many ways..." I can't start this post! All I know is that it is extremely hard to introduce someone who means so much to you in one sentence. 

Isabelle is one hell of a person. Long story short we got acquainted in freshman year and talked more sophomore year and became good friends junior year of high school! Wow, that really is long story short. In the few years I have gotten to know her I have made a really great friend and found out how awesome this girl is!

This girl is one of my dearest friends and I can not imagine not being her friend. She is probably one of the weirdest people you will ever meet- she is just so out there and I love that about her! Like me she is super into fitness, I think I have can blame her for my fitness obsession! She also has a really great view on people and life. The way she analysis a situation and then gives you advice on what to do is so much help! However, if she analysis her life she will get super into it and overwhelm herself! I love this girl so much. If you ever need to stalk anyone she is your girl too! 

She has impacted my life in so many ways. She has encouraged me to keep going in some of the toughest situations and I am so glad to have a friend like her. When it comes down to boys sometimes I think she knows what I want better than I know what I want! Isabelle knows how to handle the situation when I don't. She has also inspired me to stay healthy and fit- both great things. 

There is so much that she has bough into my life and I am thankful to have a friend like her. I write about her because how can you not write about your friends when they have such a huge impact on who you are? 

This past Sunday we went into the city with a friend of mine and took some pictures of us doing what we love to do. YOGA! We both have so much fun trying not to fall on our butts as we attempt crazy yoga poses! 

I am going to miss this girl like crazy when she goes off to the Navy! 

Friday, November 18, 2016

Fall Favorites!










Random
Dried flowers
Dark wine colored nails
Henna
Jack Black chapstick "The Stick"
Lava and Petrified wood bracelets
Grapefruits and lemons
Yurbuds (seriously awesome running earbuds)
Planning

Music
Andreas Moe
NEEDTOBREATHE
One Republic
Grizfolk- album Waking Up The Giants
Rihanna (somehow Rihanna works any season)

Clothing
Dark colors
Sweaters
Boots

Workout
Push-up variations
Squats (Max Goal- 215)
Stretching

Food
Granola
Sunny Side Up Eggs
Pizza in a jar
Squash
Tea and homebrewed ice coffee

Everyday fall things
Admiring the fog that lingers in the hills
Lots of friendly greetings
Pondering life on the train
Dry Autumn days

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

What's Keeping V Busy

HELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOO!

BOY HAS IT BEEN A *LONG TIME! Where have I been? Well, everywhere and nowhere! I have been bumbling like a bee lately. November has been super busy for me. Almost too busy. I like being busy but to an extent.

*more than three days of not blogging, reading blog, or catching up with any and all of you! 

I am forcing myself to stay awake and write on my blog instead of sleeping. It is around 7:40pm which is super early but when you have lots of things to do and the sunsets at five it feels like it's later. Daylights savings is really messing me up right now! I get home at around three and it gets dark in two hours. WHAT IS THIS? I have people to see and places to go!

THINGS I HAVE BEEN DOING!

Stressing about scheduling my classes tomorrow- I am not too stressed but it has been on my mind a lot. I have a few classes that I must get into and I am hoping they don't fill up quickly. I also need to think about classes I want to take. School has been on my mind a lot recently!

Volunteering at a summer camp- THIS is why I have been tired for the past three days. Last weekend I went on an adventure with my dad's family; we all went to camp. Not for fun and games but to volunteer. To help build and restore different areas of the camp. My sister and I shared a cabin with a bat and a mouse, ate camp food, built stairs and cleared a pathway, and spent time on the beach. Lot's of fun memories made but I am paying the price atm! It was still worth it

Going to the gym and eating healthy- I have been going to the gym after school for the past couple of days. I am finally over my lazy period and junk food addict stage. That's a thing if you are wondering! Every single gym rat and health freak goes through times where they simply need a rest and some junk food for a long period of time! YUP. Well, now I am back at it. (I have some gym workout videos I made if anyone is interested? lemme know in the comments)

Not doing homework- My ducks still aren't in a row!

Stretching!- GUYS! It has been more than half a month and I have stretched every single dear day! Super proud of myself since it is hard to keep a routine like this one. And I am  slowly but surely getting closer to finally getting my splits. Might have my right side split!

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Thankfulness Thursday


colder weather and bigger sweaters

an amazing community of bloggers that appreciate me for me

new friends

saying goodbye to my mother in the mornings

spending time with my sister at the gym

understanding college advisors

time to stretch my muscles

hugs

my mind being in the right place

time to myself

hot showers

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This is an idea I got over at Grace's blog that started at Allie's blog! The link to both of those posts is here and here! Like Allie and Grace mentioned there is a lot going on in our world and with that being said taking the time to remember what you are thankful for can help put you on solid ground. This small post has already helped me a bunch. GUYS. My thanksgiving Tag is coming up too! Last year it seemed to be a big hit so I will be coming up with another one very very soon! 

What are you thankful for?
Will you post this post? YOU SHOULD! 

Monday, November 7, 2016

Don't Just Watch {A Poem}


It's 17:14.
I am tired, confused, and a little shaken.
I take a deep breath as I write these things.

Lately- no one is phased by the things going on in the world.
You heard about people being murdered, places being bombed, 
nations going broke, people missing, ect.
Just watch the news.
Just watch.

That's all we do now a days.
We don't think about the things going on.
We don't pray for the people being mistreated
or the accidents that are happening.
We just watch. 
Unaffected.
What is wrong with us?

We watch the news, think about it for a little, then forget.
How can you forget about such serious issues?

I will tell you what I can't forget.
I can't forget my family members that passed away from cancer.
I can't forget about the girl I knew that was murdered
and I won't forget what happened today.

Today opened the eyes of a girl who didn't see what was going on around her.
I said goodbye to my mother, gave her a hug, and walked out the door.
I hoped on the train then bus.
and I arrived to college.

A loud beeping noise and message being played on the speakers
 telling everyone to evacuate.
A bomb threat sent everyone home.

They sent us home with lots of unanswered questions about what happened.
Was it really a bomb?
How did they find out?
Is anyone hurt?
Is this serious?
And the question I am asking myself- 
How did we get here?

I wonder how many people are watching the news about the bomb threat
then I wonder how many people are passing the channel as they talk about it
or how many people sit in front of the screen with an expressionless face.
I can't blame the people for just watching.

These things happen too often.
It's 2016 and bomb threats, missing people, and terrorist are not uncommon.
We hear about these issues all the time and that is the real problem.

Do not forget 
and 
do not just watch.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Writers Block // VLOG!

Once in a blue moon, I get bloggers block. In fact, I have gotten it so badly that I have no idea how to write a post about having writers block. How do people actually do this without driving themselves insane? My fingers have rested on the keyboard for a solid 15 minutes and have crafted three unentertaining sentences. My phone has gotten more attention than the keyboard which is not usually the case when I have my blog open.

DULL. My writing and all the ideas (which are none at the moment) feel very dull. Lifeless. almost. This situation puts me in a dull mood even though I have had a great day. I wish for my fingers to be controlled by a mind racing to put the words in my head onto this post. Instead, I feel an itch in my hands.

Moments like this make me appreciate when I know what to write! With all this being said or not said... here is a vlog to make up for my slightly annoying rant about not knowing what to write.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

November Goals// New Blogger!


Post a vlog twice this month- Vlogs have gotten popular my fellow bloggers! Seriously, if you have not made a vlog check out the reasons you need to make one at Abbie's blog! I am for sure going to make more of these. I like them, you like them! They make me happy!

Camp NANO- GUYS. I am freaking out. Today is the first day of nano! I have a book plot that I planned out in summer but, I need to brush up on the details... AH, do you guys make up the book as you go to or is that only me? This month I want to write at least 30,000 words.

Embrace Autumn- Fall leaves, smooth coffee, long walks in the forest, the rain, rain boots, sweaters, and soups. I love Autumn. I want to give Autumn a big hug and feel it's leaves hugging me back. I want to spend more time doing things that are Fall related. I think I have a problem...

Stretch- I always tell myself I am going to stretch all month  for at least 15 minutes! Every time I fail. I epically fail!! I fail so hard that I don't want to try again! This is why I have never gotten my splits. AND ALSO. Growing muscles makes you inflexible. 

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ALSO IMPORTANT NEWS!! The girl that helped me love blogging so much is back blogging!!! GUYS FOLLOWER HER. Waffles and pancakes will be rewarded. CLICK HERE NOW!... I said... NOW

We have been friends for three years! Never have met but she is my true love. An amazing girl who gives me the best advice when I need it. To put it shortly her friendship means so much to me and I am happy to introduce her to a loving community of bloggers

Now all you can go have a wonderful day! (only if you checked out my friend's blog, if you have not read it or even clicked the link lets just say you have 5 years of bad luck with your next crush KIDDING.) In all seriousness, I would appreciate it if you all would check her out!

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