Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Dwelling & Worrying

Lately, I've been thinking about the past and the future more than I want to, it's getting to the point where I know I am overwhelmed about it and it needs to stop. Thinking about the good memories in the past is perfectly fine, but when thinking about the past becomes a playback of things that you don't want to think about it's uncontrollably irritating. The future has similar but different problems, many unknown possibilities which lead to stressed thinking.

My past has been full of great memories, really good memories that I think about all the time, I am grateful for those memories. But my past also has bad memories that I don't care to re-visit, yet somehow they find their way back to me. Memories of failure, self- disappointment, frustration, unclear thinking, and more that come back to me one way or another.

The future has too many possibilities; possibilities that become overwhelming. That's what gets to me when I think about the future, endless unknown possibilities good or bad. I try to just go with the flow of things but when I lay down in the darkness of the night I unconsciously wonder then worry about what can happen.

I'm writing this in hope that what has been in my head for a while now will slowly drift away and leave me in peace. That all my mistakes will be forgiven, not by others but by myself. Hoping that the future will be untouched until it becomes present.

I need to live in the moment and stop dwelling and worrying about things that can not be changed.

Vanessa 

10 comments:

  1. Luckily, I know exactly how you feel. Past can sometimes haunt you, all you have to do is let go and accept that you need to move on. This is part of life's struggles.

    The Mystery Writer aka PenGirl9

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    1. Thank you for this eye-opening comment

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  2. I understand how you are feeling. When like one day you can be completely fine and the next your mind is taking you back to memories which you felt were behind you when they happened. Stuff like this may never always go away as it sometimes will be in your sub-concious but what I always do is listen to music that makes me feel happy about myself and doing activities everyday to keep your mind occupied as much as possible.

    For the future I have been through this and worrying about what the future may hold. I think what is best is focusing on the now as a second ahead is your future and if you miss that second then you miss your future. Every bit of time is precious and should be taken into account and woke up to a perfectly life that you want. So try not to focus on your future too much otherwise the small things in life will not be found as fun.

    I hope my advice helped you. It's been a long time since I have had this sort of deep conversation with someone before. I also hope you are feeling okay and that you are smiling now.

    The Grand Regime
    thegrandregime.blogspot.com

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  3. It feels nice to know that someone feels the same as me at the moment, I'm sure those thoughts will slowly go away and you can get back to the positive thinking.
    All the best :)

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  4. I can relate to this post, a lot - so don't worry, you're not alone in your thoughts.

    I do hope that many of your worries soon dissever. I suppose it's a great idea to fit as much relaxation into your life as possible; through the discovery of hobbies which allow you to get away from it all - almost a temporary release from your fears.

    Venting is also a good way to go about things, and blogging creates the perfect opportunity to do so. You'll always have a listening ear nearby, and sometimes that's all you really need, in order to allow yourself to feel even the slightest bit better.

    Sending hugs!

    Kate x
    www.theteenaspect.blogspot.co.uk

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  5. amen! it's lovely to hear your thoughts on something i have been struggling with.
    beautiful post xx

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  6. No matter how many times we tell ourselves to simply live in the moment, we always dwell on the past and the future. I don't know if we're capable of being worry-less. There are so many positives in either direction of time, and if we must, we should think of that. All that can bring us to the present is hard forcefulness in the mind, or something that shocks us into the now. I'll be working on living carelessly in the moment, and you should too.

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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  7. Your thoughts are similar to mine. The future scares me as much as it excites me, and I can't help but revisit the past. I am always this super sentimental person, but I'm trying my best to learn the art of letting go. Letting go of all the stress and worrying and just try to live life one day at a time. I don't think it's bad to worry about it once in a while, though. Don't worry you're not alone in this. <3

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  8. Sometimes I think just learning to accept that our minds do that helps, one day at a time!

    http://rainbow-roseblossom.blogspot.co.nz/

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  9. Ugh I know how you feel. I guess the only way to stop it is to try and keep positive, but then again it may come often.

    Rukiya XX

    My blog link (check it out if you want) ~ shinenelevate.blogspot.co.uk

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