Sunday, August 23, 2015

Catching Up With V

... Not Catching Up With ME but Catching Up With V. The two sounded similar and I thought I needed a better post title for my random and uncalled for update posts!

Something funny that happened to me was leaving my phone at my mom's friend's house on the 14th. We had just finished cleaning after dinner when we decided to go to a huge cemetery that has a view of the whole city below. I didn't think too much about my phone, but got home and realized where I left my phone. It's funny how dependent you are on your phone.

Barefoot in the graveyard above the city we all decided to play tag. The wind was blowing, the sun was set and we were all out of breath. The wind played with my hair as I chased the children running every which way. We were all laughing having the time of our lives and it seemed like a moment you read in a book. 


My grandma visited for a few days, August 18-21, from North Carolina. It was really great seeing her, the last time I saw her was four years ago so, it was great to catch up. On Tuesday, we picked her up from the airport around 9:00 pm, she was so tired that we took her directly to her hotel, she needed to rest. Every day after that, my sister and me stayed with her at her hotel and swam in the pool they had there, I got so tan from that! 

The thought of school is starting to enter my mind more and more. I have two weeks and a half until school starts... Senior year, here I come! The thought of school scares me a little right now because I don't want summer to end. 

Today, I have turned off my phone in hope that I can unravel and spend some time doing things I enjoy. Blogging being one of them! I have started reading, The Curious Incident of  the Dog in the Night-Time, It's a fantastic book so far!

Songs I'm grooving to: 
Little White Lies, Florrie
Eighteen, Dive In
Dancing With Myself, The Knocks

❤,
Vanessa

Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Dwelling & Worrying

Lately, I've been thinking about the past and the future more than I want to, it's getting to the point where I know I am overwhelmed about it and it needs to stop. Thinking about the good memories in the past is perfectly fine, but when thinking about the past becomes a playback of things that you don't want to think about it's uncontrollably irritating. The future has similar but different problems, many unknown possibilities which lead to stressed thinking.

My past has been full of great memories, really good memories that I think about all the time, I am grateful for those memories. But my past also has bad memories that I don't care to re-visit, yet somehow they find their way back to me. Memories of failure, self- disappointment, frustration, unclear thinking, and more that come back to me one way or another.

The future has too many possibilities; possibilities that become overwhelming. That's what gets to me when I think about the future, endless unknown possibilities good or bad. I try to just go with the flow of things but when I lay down in the darkness of the night I unconsciously wonder then worry about what can happen.

I'm writing this in hope that what has been in my head for a while now will slowly drift away and leave me in peace. That all my mistakes will be forgiven, not by others but by myself. Hoping that the future will be untouched until it becomes present.

I need to live in the moment and stop dwelling and worrying about things that can not be changed.

Vanessa 

Thursday, August 6, 2015

How To Dream Journal

How to Dream Journal:
(Sleep is Key)
Dream journaling is actually is actually quite simple, all you have to do is get a notebook and write what you dreamt about in it. When dream journaling, make sure to write down the date of the night you dreamt. (Ex. If it is the morning of the 5th write down the night of the 4th) Then, write down your dream, try to include as many details and emotions as possible. When finished writing your dream down I find it really helpful to underline keywords. Those words could be colors, objects, people, places, or something that reoccurs often. Lastly, this is optional, you can write down how you feel about having this dream.

The hard part in dream journaling is getting into the habit of remembering your dreams. I know that many people find it hard to remember what they dream about, I believe this is because of two reasons. One, you may be getting woken up in an unpleasant way or two, you woke up and rushed to check your phone.

To remember what you dreamt about you must tell yourself that you want to remember your dreams. When you wake up, don't make any sudden movements (jumping out of bed, reaching for your phone, running across the room to turn your alarm off) just lay there and think about dreams. Recalling what you dreamt about first thing in the morning is the key to success, and then of course writing it down. The more you write down your dreams, the more you remember.

This does take a little effort but dreams can tell you so much about yourself that you didn't know. Dream Jouraling a fun and unique hobbie that is worth a try!

♥,
Vanessa


Monday, August 3, 2015

Childhood As A 90s Kid

Just a sneak peek into what my childhood looked like. Also, sorry about the off white background, I don't know if it bothers you as much as it bothers me but, just bare with me. 



This here is my pet rooster, Gallo. Gallo means rooster in Spanish, gosh, I was original. 
This rooster was the sweetest, it thought that I was it's mom.


My sister and I at the Zoo and at the beach. We were close from the start. 


Birthday parties as a kid. I find it hilarious that we actually wore birthday hats.


Oh look at that, it gets even better. I was older in this birthday picture, but the balloon hats were key.


Here is my mom and me on a trolley in San Francisco. 


My dads birthday, I think he was turning 42.
Below is a class Christmas party, I miss those. 


Halloween! Here is my friend Taylor and me about to go knock on someones door. I'm the pumpkin. 


Overalls and flannel. Who knew those would come back into style.

Hope you enjoyed taking a look at these pictures! 
<3,
Vanessa

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