Friday, July 21, 2017

How to renew your vows to complete your goals this 2017

What are your 2017 goals? If you are anything like I am, at around this time of the year your goals start to slip away from you. Where as you were super motivated to get shit done in the beginning of the year now you are saying "oh whatever, I'll do it later" SHIT DOESN'T GET DONE ON IT'S OWN.* There isn't a later for accomplishing your goals. The time is now. You've got to re-motivate yourself around this time of year!
*excuse my language while I try to get my point across


FIND OUT WHAT YOUR GOALS WERE!
This is the place to start. I know it may seem kind of silly to find out what your goals were but sometimes we forget, we are human after all! You might have also made a list of goals and perhaps forgot the tiny goals you set for yourself. Go back into your blog or journal and find where you wrote down your goals for 2017. Read that entry out loud and remind yourself of what you wanted to accomplish this year. 

My goals for this year were simple. I never announced them because I feel as if goals aren't just for the beginning of the year but for whenever the time is right. In 2017 I wanted to get my side splits as well as start a stronger relationship with myself. One where I would work on loving myself and keep my mind solely focused on what I needed. As for the blogging world, I had a goal to share my journey of self-love with everyone as well as grow my audience. 

RE-WORK THOSE GOALS!
Depending on what type of goals you might have you might want to modify the goal so that you can successfully accomplish the goal at the end of the year. Let me say one thing really quickly, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH RE-WORKING YOUR GOAL SO THAT THEY ARE MORE MANAGEABLE. It might not be the same goal you started with but by accepting that you might need to re-work it you are allowing yourself to try again with more power and strength. Re-working your goals will make getting them done less scary and more manageable. 

WRITE THEM DOWN WHERE YOU CAN SEE THEM!
I am guilty of removing the notes in my room that reminded me to stretch and love myself within the last couple of month. I got really unmotivated to work towards my goals. I got so unmotivated I threw my goals into a basket full of BS and said I'LL DO IT LATER* 

We can't do that anymore though! IT'S THE MIDDLE OF JULY! What we need to do is to write down our goals AGAIN somewhere where we can see them shout at us and tell us to get shit done.** Spend some time (after you have re-worked your goals) making pretty posters or cute notes of what you need to get done. Find a way to remind yourself of your 2017 goals daily.
*later happens the last few months of the year! It's awful but I procrastinate like crazy!
**AGAIN I apologize but I'm trying to get my point across to myself and unfortunately, this is the only way that might work. 

FIND MOTIVATION ON PINTEREST, YOUTUBE, FRIENDS, YOURSELF.
Motivation and inspiration are KEY! If you don't have the motivation to accomplish your goals you won't find or go looking for the inspiration and if you don't find or go looking for the inspiration you won't feel motivated. It works both ways, my friends.

In order to find motivation and inspiration, you need to do some hunting. Find your muse and find something that works wonders when it comes to feeling inspired. You might have done something like this in the begging of the year and now it's time to do it again! Make a Pinterest board, find some youtube videos about the goal you have, talk to some friends about your plans, or maybe just talk to yourself. Whatever it may be that will get you through the end of the year, DO IT!



RE-ANNOUNCE YOUR GOALS TO WORLD OR BLOGOSPHERE
Like you did in the beginning of the year write a post about your goals AGAIN. I know it might seem unnecessary but if you wrote on in the beginning on the year you might want to consider writing one again, now. Recapping your goals in the middle of the year will give you the same feelings and motivation it did in the beginning of the year.

WORK HARD TO MAKE THOSE GOALS HAPPEN
Now that you have re-worked your goals, found inspiration, made notes, and re-announced your goals there is only one thing left to do, WORK HARD. You are the only person who can help yourself with those goals, so give it your all. 

KEEP GOING STRONG UNTIL 2018*
You've got all the tools you need to accomplish those goals! Now, all you need to do is keep working towards your 2017 goals until 2018. I know that sounds a lot easier than it actually is but accomplishing your goals will make all the work worth it! You can do this!**
*Wow it feels weird to type 2018 AHHH we have about five months of the year left?! What is this?
**...if not there is always next year ;)

Saturday, July 15, 2017

Poems




LITTLE GIRL LOST
She cried about her stress
mad at the moon
happy for the stars
crying to the sun.

Lost In Orbit.
Flying like a butterfly
being like a rose
walls up as she went from
flower to flower
from topic to topic

Found.
peace in something far away
from her roots
little one helped

Helped.
by her, and others
will come out strong

Little Girl Lost
no longer lost
guided, found, hopefully
and pleased because she is
that butterfly
wandering ever so gentle.


TWENTY YEARS
I've walked along my blood
I have learned, grown, and become.
However, influenced by the nouns. 
They have driven me, taken my mind, and shifted my views.
My blood is not pure. I'm different.

I want to walk backwards. 
Take back, recollect, redefine me. 
Take off the mask and show what I thought I couldn't.
I must bare judgment for I will be stripped.
The only way is to move forward is to be 
cautious of the backwards steps.

LITTLE BLACK CROW
Did you know, you inspired me to write?
Did you know, you made my day better?
You made me laugh, you made me smile.
I was lonely until you came and trusted
that I wouldn't hurt you. Three feet away.
Whom would have thought we'd be friends?


Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Welcome To V's About Page

Just me is my simple. Just me is only V and no one else. No one to tell me I can't do anything or I should think a certain way. When it's just me my life is Simple and that is how life should be! Simple. I also preach self-love and self-love is all about me. OR YOU! Simply Me use to be just a blog name but it's so much more now.

Simply Me is about Me. Who is V? Let's find out!

Cold fall days where the sun is the only thing that warms you. Spending time with myself and growing as an individual. Dancing alone at the tennis court. Lifting heavy at the gym, again, alone. Doing my nails when I am stressed. Finding time to write poems. Listening to mother nature. Being present in the moments shared with family, friends, strangers, and I.

Treat each human bean with the respect you would want. To listen to people when they need someone to lean on. Family first and before anything else. Hold your friends close and dear to your heart, friends can become family if you chose. Don't look back on the past if it isn't doing you any good. Don't dwell and don't worry about the future, you don't have any control over what happened and what will happen. God is good, and God will love you even if you don't love yourself. Love yourself first before anyone else.






Self-love is one of the most difficult things to learn to do but I can tell you that it is one of the most rewarding things to have accomplished on your own. Self-love is so important to me because it's made me a better person. Something so little and simple has a huge impact on my life and for the love, I have given myself I am thankful for. Self-love is something I will always talk about on my blog and will try to help every one of you achieve self-love. It is truly so dear to my heart.


People. Dance. Me. My family. Poems. Words. Self-love. Writing. Photography. College. Stories. Love. Friends. Adventures. Nature. Ice cream! Food. Pretty meals. Animals. Lifting. Running. Enjoying rain. Fall days. Earth days. Eclipses. The moon. The stars. The sun. The earth. The universe. God. 

I like hugs better than kisses. I am so independent that being in a relationship isn't something I enjoy. I have danced all of my life but have never focused on one genre of dance until college. College classes are so enjoyable. I rather date myself than someone else. I like myself if that isn't clear to you yet. Chocolate is my least favorite ice cream flavor, however, I love mudslide. 

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

I AM OKAY!


SO SORRY TO HAVE PUT YOU ALL THROUGH THINKING I WASN'T OKAY. BUT HERE IS THE THING. I THOUGHT I WASN'T OKAY TOO. BUT TURNS OUT I'M OKAY. I DON'T HAVE BIPOLAR DISORDER OR HAVE ANXIETY.

I know, that's a huge shock after thinking for so long that I had those things. Thank you for your wishes and prayers, love, and support through that hard time. Thankfully your prayers got me through everything and I am okay now.

Scary to say but I really did believe I had those things. My mother, however, was a true believer in me and kept telling me that the doctors were wrong. Mom's are the best. I didn't understand what she was trying to tell me all along until I heard the term corticosteroid-induced mania from the doctor.

Long story short the doctors were lazy and diagnosed me with bipolar disorder just so they could enroll me in the inpatient treatment center but it turns out I actually just went into a manic phase because of a medication the doctors gave me for an allergic reaction. If you didn't make the connection yet here is it really straight forward. I don't have bipolar disorder and I am 100% okay and me!

Can't thank you enough for all the blessings that everyone sent me! Thank you so much! I appreciate every one of you so so much! Praying for each one of you. *

*Will still be touching on topics of self-care and mental health on the blog. Do not fear, that is still an interest of mine.

Friday, July 7, 2017

Too Tired To Come Up With a Title

IVE BEEN IN REHAB.

Okay, hold on. I know what you are thinking. WHY ON EARTH IS SHE SHARING THAT WITH US? Okay, here is why. BECUASE MORE PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH. If there is one thing I learned while in mental rehab it was that having people who are there for you is important.

So, with that being said. Hello.

I'm V and I have anxiety and I am bipolar.

Let us help one another out. I'll help you by sharing the experiences and you can help me by showing support and love. Which a lot of you already did in the most recent post. THANK YOU ALL. LOVE YOU GUYS.

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I had been in the hospital for two weeks. TO SAY THE LEAST.  The first week I was there I was in and out of the ER and the second week I was getting mentally ready to tackle the world. It just so happens that I am home now. I have been home for an hour and 34 minutes to be exact. 

In that hour. I have awed at life and simply smiled because I got to shower, shave, do my makeup, and paint my nails. ALL STUFF I LOVE. Coming home after a mental retreat (I hate the work rehab, still.) has been lovely. The weather has been a shock but it's nothing I am not happy and excited about. A shock since I went from being in the air conditioned hospital to the apartment with no air conditioning. 

I'm about to watch the end of pretty little liars. I am soooo ready. I love this show and who is with me about that? if not... you have got to start PPL. WHHOOOP. Funny

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Now, it's the day after.  I am tired as shit. I sleep a ton and I don't do much. The only thing I have done today was going to the gym and lift. I think I am tired of seeing so many colors and smelling so many things. Boy was that hospital bland. 

Dream while napping: We wanted to take a one day trip to NYC just the two of us. My friend and her energy and me and my skepticism. Together we marched around an airport in clothes that made us feel like divas and tried to find a laptop too but tickets so we could go to NYC for a few hours and come back. "Are we really going to do this?" I asked. "Yes why not, we got this." The excitement was at an all-time high. But in the dream, we never found a ticket. We just went to jail and walked naked to jail. the clothing we took had set off a police hunt.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

WHERE HAS V BEEN?!

Ive been around. Ive been in the hospital  mending and healing my soul for about two weeks. Happy July!! And dont worry about me im fine just learning how to deal with recently diagnosed bi polar disorder and axiety. Its been hard but gods been with me.

July goals:

Learn to cope with mental illness- mental illnesses arent a joke but they also arent something thats so serious you have to hide them.

More posts on self love, mental health, and other deep shit- health and talking are important i know lots of you have anxiety dont worry about it. I have it too. Lets do this togther.

Love more

Love,
Vanessa

Monday, June 19, 2017

YEAR 20 HOPES

Hopes for year 20. A little mini checklist because these are the things I think I will have done and want to do in the next ten years.

I've got 11 minutes to think of these. 00:49

Hopes and dreams and everything else I want to do in the next decade-
-see some of my cousins get married
-spend time with Lauren
-get a job I could see as a career
-dancing minor or major
-going to the gym to lift. Muscle gains or some type of gains
-clubbing
-going to some concerts
-traveling
-visiting and meeting Stefanie in Austria (you better still be in contact
-having a serious relationship
-married?
-wedding (seems so unrealistic)
-making huge improvements in lives of my family
-moving out of home (can't live here forever)
-not living at home alone
-publishing something
-still taking photos
- actively leaning
-major photo shot
-posting better blog content
-being semi blog famous.
-loving
-finding amazing new music
-working lots
-paddling in Hawaii (such a dream of mine)
-having thanks to God.
What will I think of this list when I read it when I'm 30?
- reflecting the same way as I do

If you want to do these things now you will want to do them for your 19 year old self. See technically I'm still 19 because it's not 19:32 yet(; hahhhh. When I read this at 30 it'll have been ten years since ive written this. My biggest fear is that my blog will delete so I need to print everything. SOOOOOON. You better have done that.

It's 59. An hour has gone by now that I type this. Success spell check will go over this tomorrow. Getting my sleep now. Goodnight love -01:00


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