Saturday, March 25, 2017

Get to Know V {TMI Tag}











1. What are you wearing?
Jeans and a sweater.

2. Have you ever been in love?
Nope but, I like to say that I'm in love with someone I haven't met.

3. Have you ever had a terrible breakup?
Thank goodness no. There were a couple of flings that left me bothered but nothing major.

4.  How tall are you?
5'4" but people always guess I am a little taller. I have good posture.

5. How much do you weigh?
More than most people guess, I have a decent amount of muscle mass. Lifting makes you heavy if you do it right. I am also going to leave this question blank- we shouldn't compare ourselfs.

6. Any tattoos?
I really want a tattoo of a pine but I have none now.

7. Any piercings?
Not even my ears are pierced! 

8. OTP?
Someone explain to me what this means....

9. What is your favorite show?
Grey's Anatomy, It never gets old.

10. Who are your favorite bands?
One Republic! Their album Oh My My is one of my favorite albums. I wrote an essay about this album- I think highly of it.

11. Something you miss?
Summer days and my friends. I haven't had a lot of time to get together with them but hopefully I will see my favorite few people soon!

12. Favorite song?
This is a hard question to answer... I have been listening to To Build A Home by The cinematic Orchestra a lot.

13. How old are you?
I'm 19!

14. Zodiac Sign?
Gemini. 


15. Quality you look for in a partner?
Someone who gets me, can make me laugh, is smart, has direction, and is kind. The list can go on forever and ever but I'm not really looking for a relationship right now. The best kind of relationship is the one you can have with yourself and that's something I have been exploring this year.

16. What is your favorite quote?
"Don't follow your heart, let your heart lead the way" -Billy from writing 121

17. Who is your favorite actor?
Dylan O'Brien! 

18. Favorite color?
Lavender!

19. Loud music or soft?
Both. If I'm dancing the music is as loud as it can be but if it's late at night or I am chilling soft music.

20. Where do you go when you're sad?
My room. I get under the covers and find comfort there.

21. How long does it take you to shower?
I don't ever really time how long I take in the shower but if I am washing my hair I am guessing that it takes around 15 minutes. 

22. How long does it take for you to get ready in the morning?
It takes anywhere from 30minutes to an hour.

23. Have you ever been in a physical fight?
My sister and I occasionally fight- does that count?

24. Turn ons?
A guy who dresses well, when guys lift, has things to talk about, and can make me laugh.

25. Turn offs?
Guys who are rude. 

26. The reason you joined the blogging community?
I started my blog because I wanted somewhere to write down the things going on in my life and help others. I had no idea I would meet so many amazing people through blogging but I am so grateful for them.

27. What are your fears?
The future 

28. Last thing that made you cry?
Not sure. 87% sure it was becuase of a movie

29. Last time you said you loved someone?
Would not let my sister go until she gave me a hug and when she did I said I loved her.

30. Meaning behind your blog name?
It's a way for me to remember that you need to be yourself and being yourself is a simple thing to do. 

31. Last book you read?
Lock and Key Sara Dessen

32. Book you're currently reading?
Resisting happiness Mathew Kelly 

33. Last show you watched?
The Mick

34. Last person you talked to?
My sister

35. The relationship between you and the last person you texted?
Long distance friends. 

36. What is your favorite food?
Sushi 

37. Place you want to visit
Eygpt

38. Last place you were?
Outside at a tennis court dancing

39. Do you have a crush?
On myself LOL

40. Last time you kissed someone?
Guys... why do we have to bring this up. It was in November 

41. Last time you were insulted?
Tuesday. I got a message saying that I am rude to people and I treat them crappy and I think this is okay becuase I am pretty... There might or might not be a whole rant about this somewhere.

42. Favorite flavor or sweet?
Ice cream counts right? I live vanilla ice cream and rocky road. Yum. 

43. What instruments do you play?
I play the violin and ukulele.

44. Favorite piece of jewellery?
I have a small pearl necklace that I wear on fancy occasions. I adore that necklace. 

45. Last sport you played?
I went to the gym to lift on Wednesday!

46. Last song you sang?
Slow down. I don't remember who it's by but I was trying to create choreography to it and a huge part of making up choreography is pausing the music and going over the lyrics while you dance. Dancing and singing! 

47. Favorite pick up line?
Pickup lines are dumb.

48. Have you ever used it?
Nope. If I'm going to talk to a guy hi is usually how I start off, or I'll do them a question. 

49. Last time you hung out with anyone
I honestly can't remember. I've been so busy! 

50. Who should answer these questions next?
YOU. These questions are great for a quick get to know me post which I encourage people to post every so often for new readers. 

Thursday, March 23, 2017

Surprising Myself


I love surprising myself.

Surprising myself is a hard thing to do because I know the kind of person I am, but every once in a while I do something that I didn't see coming. Being unpredictable and spontaneous with yourself is one of the most difficult things to do, but it is one best feelings you can experience.

Let me give you a little context. Winter term I took a writing class (writing 121) mostly because I needed the credits but also I enjoy writing and I wanted to improve. We did a lot of discussion based activities in the class and the same few people always participated. I was part of the reason the class had a low discussion rate.  I'll admit it, discussion, reading out loud, and talking in class, are things that make me nervous... still. I wrote three essays in the class and always had homework. College classes are so much work.

As the term was getting closer to the end, a few people noticed that on finals day we would be giving speeches. The thought of speeches made me uncomfortable but I didn't want to think too much about it. The time passes and the class before finals day the professor explained our speeches assignment. He wanted each of us to write a commencement speech to the class, and if you wanted extra credit, you could read it in front of the class. I thought that this would be a breeze.

Writing that speech was not a breeze, at all. The rules were wack. You needed to write a speech no longer than five minutes, start the speech with a line from the poem attached, use a semi-colon, write a 60-word sentence followed by a three-word sentence, and talk about three random things from the list that was also attached. I was close to pulling my hair out from the stress the commencement speech gave me. Though, somehow I managed to write it. I knew it wasn't a normal kind of speech but I gave myself credit for the creativeness.

I printed the speech on finals day before class. I thought, just in case I want to read it I have it. It wasn't my initial thought to read the speech to the class but somehow the idea seemed less and less awful the more I thought about it. Why not read it to a classroom full of strangers? All you have to do is read it and then you're done. There isn't much to lose. I slowly became more accepting of the possibility of reading it.

When class started and the professor asked who was going to read their speech the same few people who always talk in the class raised their hand. Everyone laughed a little when this happened since it was almost a given that they would read. But when the teacher asked who wanted to read their paper first no volunteered. I guess, being first is still something everyone fears a little. While everyone was looking at each other with questioning looks, I felt my hand shot up. My heart started to race and I started to think about what I just did. Did I just willing volunteer myself to read the speech first? Is this really happening? Yes, it was really happening. Why did I just do that? What was I thinking? I wasn't thinking. Why is my hand still up? I was freaking out. I considered putting my hand down but it was already too late. The professor looked shocked and I assume everyone else was too because who would have guessed that the quiet girl who hates talking in class would want to read her speech first. No one would have guessed. Not even myself.

I got up and sat at the front of the classroom. All I was thinking about was reading the paper and walking back to my seat where I could then relax again. I took a small inhale and started to read. Late comers walked in as I read but the room was silent. The only sound you could hear was my voice. My trembling voice read until the end. The professor made a few remarks when I was done reading and I hurried to my seat.

I couldn't tell you what the next person's speech was about because the only thing I was focused on was what I just did. There was a surge of energy and a great deal of disbelief. I was shocked that I did that. I'm not that kind of person but it felt amazing to be able to surprise myself like that. I felt empowered in that moment and it felt wonderful.

This is the point of view from a shy introvert. To anyone who enjoys talking and doesn't mind being the first to share what they wrote this story might seem a little silly but this is what goes on in a shy person's mind. Don't judge us (;

So, I write this in order to tell you to do things that scare you and surprise yourself. Life becomes more profound in the moments we least expected would ever happen.

Friday, March 17, 2017

Morning Productiveness

This morning as I was getting out of bed I recognized I had some productive energy stimulating in my body. While I got out of bed, I made a small mental list of several little things I wanted to do for myself and others.

The mental note was simple:
get out of  pajamas
straighten hair
stream face
mud mask
vacuum 
do dishes
make breakfast
read

The concept of the small list was to do something caring for myself while helping with chores around the house. I figured I could kill two birds with one stone. Using time in the mornings efficiently can be troublesome for many people, but if you find yourself inspired push yourself to get things done.

Inspiration can disappear as quickly as the amount of time it takes me to crawl back into bed. With that being said, if I am feeling inspired to make my morning productive I get out of pajamas and into clothes that will make me feel encouraged to attack the day. That's what I did today.

I began to go down the list in my head in an order that made the most sense. I straighten my hair while I checked my email, made tea while I prepared a bowl and towel to steam my face, listened to music as I tried to breathe while my face hovered over a steamy bowl, I vacuumed as I waited for the mud mask on my face to dry, and I washed dishes while I prepared breakfast. This was multitasking at its best.

After everything had been done, I realized how good it felt to be able to do something for yourself while helping others around you. I was treating body right as I helped take care of a few chores, and it felt great. Helping others while you help yourself is more powerful than just helping yourself alone, and it leaves you feeling twice as good about the things you are doing.

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On the completely different note, I have had a song stuck in my head for almost three days now. This is just something I needed to write down because this never happens to me. In dance, we finished our showcase performances and needed other things to work on in class so our teacher took us through a lyrical class instead of doing our normal jazz routine. We worked on some choreography to the song (Sittin' On) The Dock Of The Bay and since Wednesday my mind has been humming that song. The choreography to that song is incredible. 

The weather here has been rather depressing. The sky is always gray and water drips from the clouds and melts into the already wet ground all day long for days. Out of nowhere, the sun comes out and the white luminous clouds play in the horizons of blue but not for long because the gray clouds come back at the end of the day. Yesterday was one of the gorgeous days where the sun shines, I remember having to squint a lot because my eyes weren't used to the sun or seeing shadows. While it rains again today, I am missing the sunshine that I know will be here to stay soon.

Wow. That got poetic... 

I leave this post hopeful to the next time I get to write on my blog again. Spring break is coming soon (22 March) and I could not be more excited for a mental reset. 

Friday, March 10, 2017

I Love Jars {Pancakes in a jar?}

I will eat anything that's in jar. Here is why: Food in jars are attractive, and good-looking food taste better. There is a cabinet in my house that is packed with as many jars that can fit into the cabinet without breaking. I grab at least one jar from this cabinet every single day! I'm in love with jars.

Yesterday, I grabbed a jar out of the cabinet and started to fill it with water. I stared at the water that was filling the jar blankly but as the jar got more full post idea popped into my head and I got enthusiastic. I was going to cook a bunch of my favorite food, put the food in jars, and have a little photo shoot!

The next one and a half hours were hectic, to say the least. I cleared a space with a white background got some jars and started to think of foods to cook. I started stuffing salad in a jar which lead to thinking about layers and that thought made me think of granola. To be as time efficient as I could I took pictures while I cooked. Multitasking at it's best. I was shooting pictures while checking on food and making sure that the sink was clear of dishes. There was a lot to do for this photoshoot. Somewhere in the middle of all this, I realized that hot food would fog up the jars with their steam SO I had to wait for food to cool down. Gosh, it was a frenetic situation but it was also so much fun.

Here are two lunch ideas. Taco bowl inspired salad: layered salad, chicken, beans, a little bit of dressing, and more salad. Pasta: layered pasta, lightly cooked spinach, and more pasta. 

Most of these foods in jars are breakfast foods because that is normally what I like to have in jars. Granola and yogurt: Pretty self-explanatory, layered granola, yogurt, and another layer of granola! 

Overnight oats: Layered oatmeal, chia seeds, oatmeal, a little brown sugar, chia seeds, and more oatmeal. Pour milk SLOWLY over everything. Stick it in fridge overnight and enjoy in the morning. 


PANCAKES! Sorry my waffle lovers, I have yet to figure out how to stick waffles in a jar! Though I have to say, I was pretty impressed with myself when this idea came into my mind. Little pancakes in a jar drizzled with maple syrup are the cutest. Behind I have coffee in a jar.


This one is pretty simple just cook scramble eggs and plop them into a jar!

COFFE! You know I am not leaving out coffee. This is actually the exact cup of coffee I am drinking this morning as I write this post! "I would like half a cup of coffee half a cup of almond milk and a little sugar, please."

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Raven {Dream Inspired Poetry}

I met you in the middle of the night.

I was feeling lively and radiant
as I ran up a hill larger than imaginable 
My mind was set on one thing: running
A million pieces of me were being collected with each step

I felt unstoppable that is until you stepped in front of me
My body stopped inches away from you
My mind was still running
But my body stood stiffly 

We were in the middle of a crosswalk
Our eyes connected and my mind awoke
Your eyes were a rich color of blue and
I felt like I knew who you were
and you knew who I was
I felt like we understood eachother

I wanted to keep moving but I couldn't
I got lost in the feelings I got by looking into your eyes
It was like we were communicating telepathically

Do I know you in real life?
I needed to know.
No, you don't, but my name's Raven
Raven.

I remember seeing sorrow in those blue eyes
It seemed like you were apologizing 
You looked devastated
But I didn't know why until it was too late

Slowly I was seeing your face fade
I was regaining consciousness
I tried so hard to stay
I wanted to stay.
but human nature dragged me away
 
I woke up feeling farther away from you than ever
I felt heavy knowing I could no longer talk to you
This goodbye was too sudden

Raven lives in my dreams and wanders in my subconscious
I have no idea if we will meet again but
if we meet in dreamland once more 
I'll tell him how much I miss him

Friday, February 10, 2017

V's Stretching Routine

Stretching is a treat for me and because of my new grown love for it, I have been focusing on doing it more often. Over the past couple months, I have made sure to stretch anywhere from 4-6 days a week for at least 15 minutes. And it has helped me so much because when I don't stretch I will like a crippled old lady. Stretching alone has so many benefits too! Like flexibility enhancement, injury reduction, stress relief, organ improvement, blood flow, and more. So why not stretch? It is the laziest kind of workout can do if you want to live a healthy lifestyle.


Once I am warmed up and only when I am warmed up I start stretching. Do not stretch when your muscles are cold, this is one of the most dangerous things you could do to yourself. Stretching cold puts you at risk of pulling a muscle and trust me that will hurt!


There are two kinds of stretching. Dynamic stretching is when you are continuously moving in order to warm up your muscles typically dynamic stretches are done before a workout. Examples of dynamic stretches are lunge twists, hip rotations, arm circles, leg swings, etc. Static stretching is when you hold a position for about 30 seconds that is minimally challenging. All the photos are examples of static stretches.

 Static stretching is most beneficial after a workout or whenever your body is warmed up. Static stretching will help your muscles gain flexibility and reduce soreness.

 One of my goals this year is to be able to finally do the splits, there forward a lot of the stretching I do is directed in that area. The splits is always something I have been close to doing but never really put enough work into it. I set my mind to this one goal this year. In the first few pictures, I am stretching my hamstrings, hip flexors, and quadriceps. (Runners lunge with feet in parallel then turn out,  hamstring stretch with flexed and pointed foot, lunge with leg up, and pigeon stretch)

 Pigeon again! Pigeon stretch is one of my favorite stretches.


 This is called a seated saddle stretch. Found this out today while I was googling names of stretches. This stretch will stretch your inner thighs and back.

 Butterfly stretch! Important note: make sure to drink water before or during stretches. Hydrate, hydrate, hydrate.

 This one is called the happy baby stretch. Do you see why? This will open up your hips.

 Then onto center splits stretches. There are so many ways to stretch center splits but I like to go from side to middle to other side then back to the middle. Obviously, I'm not the most flexible here.


 In these two pictures, I stretch with a flat back then allow my back to curve. I find it helpful to hold your arms out when you do flat back just to make sure you aren't curving your back.


Then I roll on my back and stretch with knees into the chest then extended and I repeat the same thing to the side.

And lastly, I do center splits and left and right splits. Don't be fooled- there is a decent amount of space between my butt and the ground. The angle of this picture makes it look like I am a lot closer to the ground than I actually am. But, there you have it- my current stretching routine. If you have any questions or suggestions feel free to leave them in the comments! 

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

I'm Me When I'm Alone


I need to stay sane. I forgot what it was like to be as busy as I was today. School to attend to and homework to finish right when I got home; along with laundry and a cup of iced coffee I made as a "stay in the game" reinforcement. Coffee, small talk, smiles, stretching, showers, and a hint of sarcastically complaining have helped me stay alive when I have felt most like giving up.

My life feels like it has flatlined. My emotions are bare, my thoughts are wiped, and my smile is forced. The feeling of winter depression is lingering. I am more content when I am by myself not fixating on what people are thinking of me. The words that come out of me feel so heavy but no one listening to them can pick up on that since the words are masked with a smile. Life feels dull when I am around other.

There is too much pressure being put on me to appear "normal" but I don't want people who can walk out of my life without saying goodbye to know that. Little do they care. Little do I want to explain what I don't know how to explain to them. Been there- done that- over it.

And it sounds like I am all alone but I have myself and that's all I need. It is settling to know that I have myself. I make myself comfortable which is a powerful thing and I am delighted to spend time with myself. Alone and carefree.

One of the things I want to work on this year is the concept of self-love. Loving yourself before you let others love you, learning to be comfortable with yourself, and respecting yourself are concepts we should all value. It only clicked for me a few months ago when failed attempts at relationships made me realize that the ultimate relationship can be with yourself. Giving myself a year to solely focus on the things I love doing is something I felt like I needed in order to grow up maturely. Self-love is what I am working on right now.

I am trying to accept that I may not feel like myself right now but that I love who I am no matter the situation. I have to keep telling myself that this is a good start- a little different than I initially thought it would be but not bad. I am staying positive by recognizing that my happiness comes from myself. I do the things I love to put a smile on my heart. And I tell myself that I will be my "normal" self when the time is right but in the meantime, there is no rush.

Spending this time reflecting on how I have been feeling and what I want to achieve will help me see things in a different light. There is messiness in this writing and there is dullness. My mind feels like a mess and my thoughts feel plain. The direction of my writing is scattered but it is something so strangely comforting about being monotone.

How to leave these thoughts on an end note isn't something I am able to piece together right now. I have tried various ways to end this but it's hard to end thoughts in a matter of seconds. Here is to hoping that February is more enlighting in different ways on my journey of self-love.

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